sometimes, i scare myself.

I am going to the event tomorrow with friends. :)

I had mixed emotions yesterday.

FRUSTRATION

I was scheduled for enrollment yesterday. I was one of the few who wore uniform. Oh why did I let my good girl side dominate my bad girl side?

When I got to school, I learned that the main computers were affected by the brownout so the enrollment process was prolonged. It was hot, we were required to wear undershirt and I was sweaty.

Bwisit pa, I was number 32C, they called us in batches by 30s, (1-10A,B,C, 11-20A,B,C, 21-30A,B,C, so on and so forth) pero every batch seemed to take forever. Prang more than 30 silang nakapili dun nagpapaprima. Badtrip talga, malamang ayan na naman ang mga singit rangers.

CONTENTMENT

Good thing, I did what my friend suggested, I got a number from the cashier before I did anything, thanks RA!;) At least, medyo napadali yung pagbabayad.

SURPRISE

I was told by my class president that the amount to be paid is P11,606. I asked him if it was discounted, sabi niya OO. When you pay in cash kasi, there is a 3% discount. So I had no hopes of getting kickback. I was given by my mommy P11,700 to pay, naawa pa nga siya, sa akin na lang daw yung sukli. When I got my assessment form, was I in for a surprise. If I pay in cash, the total amount to be paid is P11,258. Weeee. May kickback pa ako.

HAPPINESS

Good part was that after my enrollment, I got together wit h two of my closest friends! Biday and Sidney. Foodtrip to the max! We called for a celebration for Sid’s new hamsters, Popoy and Basha. Were t

hey so cute! Anliit-liit pa nila, lalo na si Basha. Basha behaved like Maria Clara. Si Popoy naman overexcited. Still jumping from our grasp. We had pancit canton party!

MISFORTUNE

We left Sid’s house after we ate pancit canton. Next destination was Biday’s

house. We wanted to try Bagnet so kahit na gabi na at tinetext na ako ng nanay ko na umuwi na, pumunta pa rin kami kila Biday. On our way there, we passed Jollibee. Nakita namin walang mga ilaw. Brownout pala. At take note, kakabrownout lang daw mga minutes bago kami dumating. Malas diba? But we didn’t let that come between us and the Bagnet. Biday bought candles and thanks to my cellphone’s flashlight, we were able to fulfill our heart’s and stomach’s desire. :))

PAIN

Just as we were leaving, I hit my foot on a metal frame near the door. Tolerable naman yung sakit, so I thought the pain was just from the impact, medyo malakas kasi(ewan ko ba paano ba ako maglakad, kinakaladkad yung paa). But when I put on my shoes, I felt something sticky. So I took my shoe off again and examined my foot. And then, I saw blood. Hahaha. The flesh was sticking out. Balik ulit kami sa loob, they got me all kinds of medicine for wound care, hydrogen peroxide, iodine, alcohol. Thank you Biday and family for the concern and the medical supplies! What was creepy though, is that the floor was covered in blood. I didn’t expect it would bleed that much. It was like a horror scene. The floor was smudged with blood from where I was walking and where I treated my wound, there were drops of blood.

After treatment, Biday gave me this cute Hello Kitty band-aid! Waaaa. I told her I will never take it off. :))When I got home I inspected the inside of my shoe, when I was walking kasi I can feel it was sticky, and I saw that there were stains of blood. Massacre! XD My foot hurts even now. Hope it is cured by tomorrow. Go healing powers!

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So yesterday was kinda not my day, but I really had fun! I was with my bestest buds and we were happy kahit na walang ilaw. XD Biday gave me tons of food from Ilocos, Davao and Korea. You should really try the seaweed snack they gave me. ;)

I will forever and ever love both the book and the 2005 film. No matter how many times I have seen it, my heart still skips a beat. A very wholesome movie indeed. No hugs, no holding hands, no kissing scene. But the story overflows of love. Jane Austen and Joe Wright are both geniuses.

I will now read again the novel. I do not know where I have put my book, no choice but to download a pdf file. ;)

Keira Knightley has been my girl crush for a while now. She’s very elegant but has a boyish side. A kicker for classic english movies.

I absolutely adore Keira and Matthew’s chemistry.

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My sister’s classmate, 10 years of age (so young), which is diagnosed with an acute myelogenous leukemia (M5) is now required by her doctor to have four bags of blood transfusion a day. She needs donors badly. She is currently in Philippine general hospital. Seeing her in her hospital bed, even if I barely know her, broke my heart, a girl so young is fighting leukemia. But still in the midst of this unfortunate situation she is luckily an AB+ blood typed.

kung saan-saan na nakarating yung parents nya looking for blood, kaso napaka-dalas pa rin po nilang nauubusan ng mabibili. so sa lahat po ng willing na mag-donate kahit anong blood type po ay accepted. just meassage me for further details, kung hindi man po kayo ma-kaka-pag-donata, please re-blog this.

but above all prayers will also be great!

[thanks for your time reading this]

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Guys, please help her. Prayers, they make miracles. Thank you. :)

Please let’s do help her. Reblog lang matutulong ko kasi type O ako ee. ~_~

PLEASE REBLOG THIS.

“I am altophobic.”

I have been suffering form altophobia since forever. I do not know how or why I am afraid of heights.

My mom had told me a story of how my father dropped me from the gap of an escalator in SM when I was still a young girl a couple of times. I do not know if that is related to my phobia but can be.

I do not have problems in going up or down, just looking down. I can get by crossing a very high bridge by not looking down. When I look down, the problem kicks in.

When I look down from a very high place, disturbing thoughts run through my mind with a red flag. I can be very pessimistic at times, and one of those times is when I look down from heights. I think of what could happen, how will I fall down and what will happen if I do. For example, earlier on, while crossing the new overpass

adjoining the central avenue side of commonwealth and the UP campus side, Sidney, KB and I stopped midway. I was doing fine. Not minding the height and the fast vehicles below. But we noticed the new sign board of MMDA, saying: ‘BAWAL TUMAWID MAY NAMATAY NA DITO’. So we stopped midway the bridge. I tried real hard not to look down but curiosity got a hold of me. I look down and saw the sign alright. But in the process of looking down, I also saw how high up we were and how concrete the ground below us was. It was a pool of gray. I also saw the speeding cars, trucks and buses passing by below. I thought, pano pag naoff balance ako? Tapos I slipped off the railings. Bali-bali mga buto ko, mabuhay man ako, dahil sa hindi ako makagalaw, at malayo pa yung mga taong magrerescue sa akin, nasa kabilang ibayo pa, masasagasaan naman ako ng rumaragasang kotse. One typical scenario I always think of whenever my altophobia strikes.

When my phobia strikes, my hands get cold and clammy. My feet also sweats. I tremble. I have difficulty of breathing. My heart rate speeds up and I palpitate. My vision gets somewhat limited and my whole body stiffens. My knees get weak and buckles. And I know, that’s what will make me fall. Not because of an invisible wind knocking me off balance, not a person that will accidentally bump me off the railings, but my knees getting weak and buckling.

I tried very hard to overcome my fear but no such luck. I became an enthusiast of roller coaster rides. I was the one who will pull my friends to wait in line for a rollercoaster ride.  I was the one not to pass up any ride. I was the one to go with anyone who dares to try a new ride. But even though my love for rollercoasters and amusement park rides bloomed, I was still altophobic. I still sweat when I look down from high places. My knees still go weak from standing at a high place.

I don’t want to die by falling down from an overpass. :( Oh, please God, don’t let it be my death. :(

At hindi nagtatapos doon ang alay lakad ko. Back when I was in HS, sometimes, I used to walk from school to Balara.

From my classroom, 4th or 5th floor, lakad papuntang gate. Pagdating ng main gate, lakad papuntang central. Galing central, tatawid ng overpass papasok ng UP campus. From UP campus, commonwealth gate, lalakad papuntang oval. From oval, papuntang coop. From coop, pass UP church to Sunken Garden. Through Sunken to Vinson’s Hall. From Vinson’s through the gate leading to Balara Filters.

I walk that much. When I walk all the way, ibig sabihin gusto ko mapag isa. Hindi ko lalakarin yang buong yan pag may kasabay ako umuwi. Dunno why, but I always feel like I am more at peace when I’m walking alone. Some of the times, I use the time for thinking, but most of the time, I just like strolling. Looking around. Pag naglalakad ako sa UP, lage ko iniisip, parang wala ako sa Pilipinas. Napakatahimik. Puro puno. Hindi pa dikit-dikit yung mga building. Hindi siksikan. Hindi katulad ng mga lugar sa Quezon City at Manila. Lumingon ka lang ng onti, building na makikita mo. Bihira bang makakita ng bakanteng lote. When I walk, I also like observing people. UP students always intrigue me. They strike me as smart persons noon pa. Pag sumasakay nga ako sa UP Ikot, lage ako naaamaze sa mga studyante. They don’t care about what other people think of them. Sasabihin nila gusto nila sabihin. Gagawin nila gusto nilang gawin. Susuotin ang gusto nila suotin. Lage pa sila nag-iingles. Kahit na yung itsura nila yung tipong di mo aakalain mag-eenglish.

Kanina, ginawa ko na naman yun. Nilakad ko na naman ang buong UP. Kala mo nagsstrolling lang. Mukha nga akong emo. Naglalakad mag-isa, napakabagal pa. Paki nila? Namiss ko maglakad sa UP eh. Sayang nga walang avocado flavor na ice cream. Ritual pa naman yun. Bibili ng avocado flavored ice cream sa manong ice cream sa coop, at padiladila habang naglalakad.;)

I walked a long distance today. My feet hurts but my heart satisfied.

In the afternoon, we went to Judith’s house which is near our old school. How near? A 5 min. walk. One of the things we always do and will not get tired of doing was reminiscing old times. We thought about all the things that we did back in HS. All the silly stuff we used to do, remembering such things made us realize how much we miss the happy, carefree HS life, and how much we miss each other’s company. Remembering all of things also made us realize how old we are getting. Not that old but getting there. ;) You know what I mean.

We decided to go have a peek at our old school. Though we could not go in for almost all of us is wearing shorts, we just stood outside the front gate and took pictures. Because that’s all that we could do. Hoping only that our beloved teachers would come our way but not long, hopes die. Considering the time, 5:30 pm, more or less,most of them would’ve gone home already. So we decided to go home.

                             

Now, one of the things that we agreed upon was the thought of taking for granted walking from school to commonwealth ave. which was half of central ave. Almost everyday for 4 years, we walked on that sidewalk and did not realize its importance. Its beauty. Its significance. What we only thought of is how to get to the end of the road, without getting bored, realizing wasted time, and not getting burnt from the sun’s heat. But now that we finally walked on it again, those things never did cross our minds. We walked in a pace so slow so that in that time, we could reminisce more of our moments walking this walk. So that we could breathe in every speck of scenery so familiar with us that we could walk the entire duration with our eyes closed. I know I did. When I walked side by side with my old classmates this afternoon, I couldn’t keep my eyes fixated on the path I’m walking on. I kept glancing left and right. Remembering times I have walked on this path. So many times  that it was countless. Then and there, I realized how I really miss the old days. If only I could go back, I would still walk this ground, this path I am walking in, I thought.

At the end of the road, with the tricycle terminal in sight, signifying parting ways, I wondered, when will be the next time I will get to walk here again? After a sem? Or two? A year? Not knowing the answer to that, one thing I am sure of, I hope I will get to walk side by side the people I want to walk with and want to share memories with. My friends. :)

I had so much fun this day. I did not regret tagging along with my old classmates. I wasn’t originally invited, and my best friend, Sidney, just pleaded me to go too. And I said yes. I was having second thoughts at first ‘cause firstly, I wasn’t directly asked by the coordinator, and second, I haven’t been with them for 2, 3 years? I was hesitant if there is still chemistry between them and me. But very good thing I gathered up my courage to go out of the house and face some of my old classmates, and discovered how much fun I have when I’m with them. :)

We went to La Mesa Eco Park to go boating. Was it fun! We rented out 3 boats, 4 persons each. Our numbers were just even! There are 12 of us so total of 3 boats. Each second of that 30min. boating ride was pure laughter. Hahaha~ There is a video of us posted in facebook, watch here. Mukha kaming mga tanga! All we did was laugh, and shout ‘WHOOOO!’. This boat ride made me realize that we have no boat driving skills. All we did was turn 360 degrees, go into circles and bump into each other. Hahaha. Good thing no one else but our lot was in the boating area or we couldn’t have guaranteed that we won’t bump into them.

We all had fun, and lost our voices due to much shouting and yelling and laughing. Last thing, THANK YOU GOD FOR NOT LETTING OUR BOAT TURN UPSIDE DOWN.